I jumped into
The deep end
Knowing the danger,
The risks involved.
But I was fearless
I had strength
Or mere foolishness…
Nevertheless
I jumped into
That pool
But the water
Was deeper
Than initially thought
And I realized
I was in an ocean.
I wanted to stay
Afloat
I wanted to get out
But seeing the shimmer
of buried treasure beneath
Made me go down
Wanting to explore.
And as I sink down
I lose more breath
That keeps me alive.
But it still shines down there
And my curiosity pulls me.
Finally I reach my destination
Of glimmering objects–
Is it really gold I see?
With closer inspection
I see broken shards of glass,
Aluminum cans, and twisted
Pieces of metal.
What is this–a landfill?
Now my body goes in shock
And it’s time to get out
Of the dark waters
And find refuge.
I’m swimming up fast,
So fast
I’m running out of oxygen
Yet I can almost see the light
That shines above.
Can I make it?
Will I survive?
I’m not sure but
I keep going.
Archive for January, 2009
You don’t love me.
Your words say so
Yet you say we can still be
together.
How wretched I feel
to be so unloved
uncared
by you.
I had hopes
I had dreams
with you all in it.
But now they are just silent whispers
of nothing.
I cringe
I sob
I cry myself to sleep.
My heart aches
Ten thousand times
As it did before.
Why don’t you know how?
Why can’t you learn?
Why do you keep at bay?
I am sorry
For anything that hurt you
In the past.
But mine is not
Perfect either–
Scratched lenses
Thrown deep into the mud.
So why am I able to love, still?
Why can I do such a thing?
How will my heart ever
Be healed?
It’s cold, very cold
But somewhere
down deep down,
I still have hope
For better times.
